So here it is, 2019. Happy New Year! Like every other person who gets to this time, my head is full of the excitement and possibilities for the year to come and also reflective on the year passed. What I am trying to avoid this year however, are the string of resolutions that make it to February, before they fade into the noise of ‘back to normal’ life.
I spent the last few weeks of 2018 with an anxious knot of excitement and overwhelm over what we have planned for this year. But if I allow these anxious thoughts to take control, I know that they have the power to turn motivation and joy into fear and worry. So I am taking a different approach to the start of this year. I am avoiding the resolution list, which in my case ends up being a shopping list of things that are currently wrong with me and need ‘fixing’, instead I am making myself a promise.
I promise to take care of myself.
This will take form in various ways and collectively, I hope that keeping this one promise will bring me a lot more than half a stone on the scales, or a whole month of drinking at least 2 litres of water a day.
This may sound vague, possibly even selfish, but how many of us put ourselves at the bottom of our ‘to do’ lists? Everything gets done for everyone else and there is never enough left in the tank for ourselves. We get frustrated and resentful of areas of our lives that ‘take’ opportunities away from us, when actually we give them the power to do so.
Promising to take care of myself is a far healthier concept for my mind to process than a list of things to fix and also covers a broad range of my life.
Taking care of myself will mean making sure that I work on building our goals first and with top priority. It will also mean creating a better sleeping routine. I won’t allow myself to get annoyed by others or feel inadequate on social media, I will just delete/unfollow. I will exercise and take care of my back so that I don’t get fatigued by pain. Creating an organised space will stop the stress of having to find things later. I promise that I will stay true to myself and not allow myself to feel less, compared to others.
There are so many more things that will come under this heading and not one of them will be to wake up at 4.30am and run for an hour before eating kale and chicken for breakfast every day except Sunday and work 18 hours a day to make sure my (money goals) happen.
I promise to look after myself and enjoy life.